A lot has gone on, but nothing has really happened. On Tuesday, October 13th, I mindlessly popped 1200mg of my medication and nearly had two heart attacks. After passing out from overdose, I was hospitalized and kept in a mental institution for two days. Ladies and gentlemen, suicide is overrated. I have been there, I have done that, it's just a stupid thing people do when they have nowhere else to go.
I've also been smoking more marijuana lately which has really helped with my attitude and my predisposition. Why this shit isn't legal is a crime against God. Anyway...I've been doing better, that's all I'm gonna say. Aside from what I've already said. Peace.

So my best friend Tyler and I have found an apartment to live in over the summer, I just got out of school for the summer today and I'm working 2 jobs as well as giving plasma so I should be covered. But this month is gonna kill me financially...I have so many movies and concerts to go to I don't think I'll have any left after paying rent.

Anyway it's gonna be fun and it's spacious and cool but he's gonna be gone all of mid-June, so anyone that wants to travel to Southeastern Iowa to say hi (I think you're all crazy enough) then that would be much appreciated. Kthxbai.

I just turned 19 now and I can go into bars...is that all? I guess that's all. But within 24 hours of my birthday I got two jobs! One at Menard's, another at Papa John's Pizza! I know it doesn't sound all that great but this plus plasma donation = me earning money, and enough of that in the future = me finding a base in the entertainment industry...so this doesn't just affect me >.< It affects ALL OF YOU as well
So thank you for the love <3

Goddammit...I've applied at 30 places in the last three months and have so far not been hired. The situation looks bleak and I'm still falling deeper into debt. The only income I have is occasional goodies from my parents, promising to pay them back eventually. Ugh! So frustrating. Our economy must really suck.

On a lighter note, I beat Ninja Gaiden 2 on both Easy and Normal modes, unlocking Hard mode...it's supposedly the hardest game ever, so if anyone can top that *shrug* Go ahead

Whew, I can finally say that! I'm living at home and relaxing on my wonderful futon, doing nothing but eating, sleeping, and getting on the internet (with the occasional hangout). Sure, I'm broke and in huge debt. Sure, I'm jobless and dropped out of college. But mentally I'm doing great for the first time in forever, so fuck the rest.